Personally, I think I've gotten over a major hump. It's totally a halfway point thing. Now we only have 5 more days here in Togo and then 3 days after that til we're on our way back to the States. I'm really looking forward to it but now that we're on the downswing and I'm past the "so ready to go home" stage, I have a much better outlook on the rest of the time here. Our team is gelling well and mellowing out after having spent 3 weeks together, and I think we're all getting settled into a rhythm with our personalities and will do well together this summer.
On another note, something we talked about tonight when Caroline and I went over to the Kennells' for dinner kind of struck me. Mark just touched on how people leave Africa and go home unchanged, just because they are calloused to letting it affect them. I just don't want that to be me. I was literally thinking earlier today, "OK, life changing experience? Right. That's cliche." I totally wrote it off, when in reality I need to let God be God and do what He wants to do in my heart rather than dictating what will and won't happen ahead of time. maybe I won't have some cataclysmic, earth-shattering experience or revelation, but why do I get to play God and say that I won't be changed? That's a little self-righteous. I'm praying that my heart would be open to however God wants to move me over the next week. I just want Him to be the one who determines how my heart is shaped, rather than me.
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