In awe

Usually at Sanctuary (our Thursday night worship service) everybody is on their feet the whole time, just excited to be praising God together. But tonight as we were singing about how God is indescribable, uncontainable, all-powerful, unchangeable, how He has placed the stars in the sky and how the earth will shake at Jesus’ return, I wondered how I could possibly stand on my feet in front of such a powerful and awesome God. I sat down in my chair, convicted of my unworthiness to stand in God’s presence, His holiness beyond comparison with my brokenness. I don’t understand why God loves me and continues to pursue me in spite of my pride and selfishness and all of the times I put what I want in front of what He wants. I am so unworthy of being in His presence, yet He loves me so much more than I can even know. I cannot help but be changed by that knowledge. I cannot help but give Him everything.