June 5, 2011 -- Patience

I don't think I blogged about this, but over the past couple weeks I've been painfully aware of my lack of patience. I think that over years I've become less patient with people rather than more patient, which is definitely not positive personal development lol. I am just not quick to forgive others of what I see as their flaws and personal shortcomings. As if I'm the one who gets to decide that. I'm thankful that the other people on this trip are much more patient than I am because I've been annoying myself even. So my prayer these past several days has been that I would have increased patience with others, with the words that I say, and with myself.

I think that now I am really seeing improvements in my patience, especially after the past couple days of deciding to consciously change my attitude. I kind of realized today how prideful I've been with my lack of patience and my hard-heartedness but in and of themselves and in not acknowledging that their roots lie in the stubbornness of my own heart and that I need to hand them over to God. Maybe I'm missing something or consequences will present themselves later, but I'm glad that at this point I haven't had to have a significantly serious humbling experience for me to learn this particular lesson.